Fear of Being Dumped 🤗
Jan 16, 2024
As the Soulful Business Mastermind approaches, I’ve sat with some fears.
I’m the kind of person who follows my heart, & in the past, it got me into trouble.
When I started going into the spiritual path & got serious about it — when it was unusual, unpopular, and rare, I got dumped a few times:
- my ex told me that he can’t be with a spiritual woman. He told me, “When I got together with you, you were an atheist, you have to stay that way.”
- my father didn’t talk to me for a few years, because I suddenly became spiritual & he couldn’t relate
- in my ex-work, in academia, I got into lots of trouble for expressing myself, being myself, talking about metaphysics & more.
It was dramatic & traumatic. Now, I’m venturing into merging spirituality with money — it’s controversial. And, in my opinion, so necessary. Because the mindset of a poor healer or poor artist or poor change-the-world-maker must change. We must direct money towards purpose, joy, love, and consciousness.
And this week, the closer it is to the retreat, it’s bringing up triggers for me: the fear of being dumped is one of them. But as one of my friends told me:
You gotta choose your new story. You gotta make it what YOU want.
And maybe, this is why it’s been coming up — because I am ready to re-write the story & have a happy ending to it this time around.
I am extremely excited about this retreat. This does not mean it has not been triggering. But as I see it — I need to hold space for myself so that I can hold space for others.
And, I have to say, the two women who are partnering with me on this adventure are incredible. I’ll see you there in just a few days.
❤️, Mariya